After my mom's diagnosis, there
was no time for a lesson in breast cancer. Most patients go through one
day of learning. They attend an all day meeting with other cancer
patients and doctors. They are educated on what is happening, how
breast cancer works, etc. Then, everyone breaks for lunch and the
doctors come up with a plan. Upon return, the doctors share the plan of
attack. By the time my mom met with her oncologist, June 20, we were
down by 100 points and in the 4th quarter. There was even less time
than her oncologist thought. He originally told us, "This is not
curable but we will attack and try to keep the cancer quiet for as long
as we can. We have to move fast. Three chemo meds...starting on
Monday. We have to be aggressive."
After my mom's blood was drawn and
she was sent home, she received a phone call telling her to come back to
the hospital. She was in liver failure. Chemo would start the next
day after a port was placed.
Needless to say, this was all
terrifying. Everything I learned, I learned on my own through
questions, the internet and the materials we were given. I grew up in a
split family home. Visits to dad were every other
weekend and I was with mom most of the time. At my dad's, if someone
didn't know the answer to something, we looked it up. I hated that.
"Let me get the almanac," my dad was always saying. Or the dictionary
or he made a phone call. The point was that the answer had to be
found. Now, I operate the same way.
My mom lost her appetite and had
incredible nausea. Several people coyly offered weed. I immediately
refused. Yes, marijuana was something I experienced in college but
since becoming a Christian in 2003, I was the furthest from it. This
was not something I wanted for my mom. In fact, I didn't think anyone
should have access to it. It was just another reason to get high.
Another excuse. Another abuse. I remember voting against medical
marijuana. I remember feeling so disgusted when all the dispenseries
opened. I remember feeling victorious when most closed back down.
Marijuana was NOT an option.
I started researching to find out
more about triple negative breast cancer. What I found was ugly. It is
the most aggressive of the breast cancers. It reacts well to the chemo
at first and then becomes immune. There was nothing that could really
stop it.
I sent an e-mail around the time of
my mom's initial diagnosis to my crunchy friends asking for direction.
They suggested Young Living Essential Oils. All of the stories they
sent me, validating the effectiveness of the oils to kill cancer or help
jump start the immune system sounded great! But where was the actual
research? I couldn't find any. There is a woman on the net that did
research on all of the essential oils on the market and more questions
were raised then laid to rest. What is the concentration of the oils?
How pure were they? Where were the ingredients coming from? How
exactly do the oils kill cancer? Where is the clinical research? I
mean, personal accounts are great but can I contact the people who are
making these claims? Is there any medical support?
I found essential oils to be a dead end.
Here is a simplified trail of where my research led:
Foods that fight cancer
Changing your diet
The Gerson Diet
Essential Oils
Orange Oil
Candida
Side effects of Chemo
How to help side effects of chemo
White Blood Count
Mucositis/Thrush
cancer cure
HIV is being used as a possible cure for cancer
Triple Negative Research search
July 13th searches:
triple negative breast cancer clinical trials - Google Search
Breast Cancer Treatment (PDQ®) - National Cancer Institute
Chemotherapy breakthrough could dramatically reduce side-effects | Science | The Guardian
elevated bilirubin - Google Search
FDA approves 'smart bomb' against breast cancer | The Advisory Board Daily Briefing
Metastatic Lung Cancer Fatal Adventure with Chemo & Smart Bombs - YouTube
July 14 searches:
elevated bilirubin - Google Search
FDA approves 'smart bomb' against breast cancer | The Advisory Board Daily Briefing
Metastatic Lung Cancer Fatal Adventure with Chemo & Smart Bombs - YouTube
Cory Monteith Dead: Glee Star Dies at 31 - Yahoo! TV
The Triple Negative Paradox: Primary Tumor Chemosensitivity of Breast Cancer Subtypes
Israelis give a double punch to triple-negative breast cancer | ISRAEL21c
Meet Denise Wolf: Fighting A Triple Negative Threat - The Independent: Community
Civilians trapped in Syria mosque | Arab News — Saudi Arabia News, Middle East News, Opinion, Economy and more.
Futurity.org – How to tame ‘triple negative’ breast cancer
What are the Side Effects of Tamoxifen?
Omega-3 Fatty Acids Slow Triple-Negative Breast Cancer Cell Proliferation
AACR Annual Meeting 2013 - Google Search
July 16 searches:
how close cure for cancer - Google Search
Scientists find treatment to kill every kind of cancer tumor | Fox News
Cancer Dream Teams: Road to a Cure? | TIME.com
Do
you see how I was all over the map with this research? And I wasn't
finding much of anything. Promises, promises. But now, it was July 17
and my search brought me to something different. Something I wasn't
expecting. Take a look at my searches from July 17...almost an exact
month after my mother was officially diagnosed to die.
July 17 searches:
Potions from Poison? | Treatments from Toxins: New Drugs May Come from Some Dangerous Places | TIME.com
http://healthland.time.com/2013/07/15/treatments-from-toxins-new-drugs-may-come-from-some-dangerous-places/slide/waxy-monkey-frog/
THC cures Cancer - Google Search
Spain Study Confirms Cannabis Oil Cures Cancer (Reloaded) | Zen-Haven - Love Hope Courage
Marijuana cuts lung cancer tumor growth in half, a 2007 Harvard Medical School - Google Search
A
2007 Harvard Medical School study shows Marijuana cuts lung cancer
tumor growth in half. | “Hang together or hang separately” (Ben
Franklin)
FB Home Grown Hydroponix
Federally Sponsored Marijuana Study Backfires: Scientists Conclude DEA Should Reclassify Cannabis | Marijuana.com
Did
you see it in there? "THC cures cancer" was one of my google
searches. But why? I'm still trying to figure out how I got to THC. I
think I either read something about THC in the comments of a different
article or when I pinned the Potions from Poison article to
Pinterest, an article about THC was suggested. What matters is that I
read the article. And I grew curious. And I started to dig and dig and
dig.
I
was blown away by what I found. Research. Actual research by medical
researchers! And names. Lots of names of real people who could be
contacted. I was excited by what I was reading but also skeptical.
This whole experience reminded me of how I came to follow Christ. It
was a slow process with lots of research on the Bible. But in the end,
faith. Not blind faith. Reasoned faith.
I
started sharing what I was learning with my husband, sister, step-dad
but not really my mom. I wasn't sure how she would react to what I was
telling her. I wasn't even sure WHAT to tell her. I still had so much
to learn.